All Those Places in Between Up and Down

My life is a continual extraction from “group mind” and “small self thinking” and movement into the great expanse of the unknown and unlimited. I had a quite wonderful awareness this week that relates to this, in a typically mundane way. It will seem obvious after I describe it to you – but that is how so much of the spiritual enlightenment process actually works in my experience. 🙂

I was feeling “so so” not great, not terrible, just plugging away at my day job but with this nagging background noise of “I want to feel better! This is not good. This is down, I want to be up!”

So I stopped what I was “doing” and sat with myself. I changed my computer desktop background to show this beautiful photo I took of a Hawaii sunrise, to which I have added the Instrument Panel as created by my friend Lola Jones. (You can download a free copy of it for yourself at the end of this post.

Low and behold when I located myself on the list of emotions, I was actually “above water” and not down in the dumps as that little voice in my mind was saying. It occurred to me that “easy going, slightly bored, acceptance”, was a darn good place to be! I realized that my small self, the inner kid, the monkey mind – whatever you call that inside voice that yammers a lot – can only see up or down, good or bad. She can’t discern the simple pleasures of life – she thinks that only a state of fireworks is good. She thinks if I am not at a 10, then I must be down at zero.

This actually cracked me up! One because it makes perfect sense – duh. And two, how easy it was to miss my actual enlightenment! Remember those great teachings, “chop wood, carry water” and “be here now”? Well, that is what I was doing – only my small self did not recognize this as spiritual enlightenment. I was laughing out loud wondering how many people have enlightenment (and its accompanying bliss) sitting right there in the chair with them without realizing it? I am sure I have lots of good company, and that leads me to one last teaching I have loved for years:

“As I receive pleasure, so the universe receives pleasure through me.”

And off I go now, as “my work is done” for this moment!

Photo by ccaviness on Flickr.

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About Roxanne

I use a specialized form of coaching to help people be more of who they are and less of who they're not. I lived in Hawaii for 17 years and now reside in Santa Fe, NM. I work with clients around the world. I invite you to join my "Get Blissed" email list for updates.


  1. CelesteAnn says

    Do you think this is an American disease because of the way commercial media through their advertising tries to make us feel – that we are never enough, never have enough, never do enough?
    Very insightful & helpful post destined to help all of us who read it. Thank you Roxanne.

  2. Funny you say that Celeste Ann as I often get tripped up by an unlove of advertising and the commercialization of so many things.

    However I think it is larger than that – that we as humanity have been playing this game for so long of forgetting our divinity, and having all sorts of silly rules in its place!

    That, combined with the fact that little me inside each of us cannot – by definition at this stage in history – be aware of how much is available to each of us! Just look at any kid at the candy stand next to the checkout counter: it feels like life or death whether a candy bar is permitted or not. 🙂

    Thanks so much for reading and commenting. I really appreciate you for taking the time and energy to do so.